Wednesday, 26 February 2014

Always.

Always there
Never left
If you did
I'd be bereft
Undertones
Purity
Can't explain
Your love for me
When I cry
Wipe the tears
Even after
All these years
Don't mind me
I'll be here
By your side
Waiting near
It's alright
I understand
Trust me now
Take my hand
I will lead you
To the light
Don't be scared
Hold on tight
Never leave
Stay right here
I'll always be
Waiting near.

© Alice Daley 2014


Fingerprints.

Clammy, my hands
The window cold.
The light, pale light
Shining on you.

Your face, so bright
And yet so sad,
Severed us, they did
Took away our only comfort
So we will fight
We will bite
We will stand up for what is right

I gaze across at you,
Knowing you're safe,
Praying you'll stay
Until the end.

Wondering how long
Before I am free,
A caged beast,
But whilst you're here,
Calmer, stronger.

Love cannot be shaken
The chains they bind us with must be broken
And we will be reunited once more
For love will break down those doors.

© Alice Daley 2014

Saturday, 15 February 2014

Multiplicity. An acrostic.

Many beings, one body
United, and yet discordant
Limbo, sometimes nobody in charge
Trying to imitate one 'person'
Imposter? No. Just another mind
Possible? Yes. Many minds in one body
Living with company, constantly
I enjoy the companionship
Cut off from the world, my own reality
Isolated? No. I still have friends
Troubled? No. I'm happy with my head
You won't change us, we're not a disorder.

[C] Alice Daley

Anorexia. An acrostic.

Always scares of food
Nowhere to run
One thing on your mind- weight
Running from your warped reality
Exercising, burning non existent fat
X rays would show a skeleton
I can already see one, but-
Anorexia,  it takes over.

[C] Alice Daley

Block.

Writer's block
Gets you nowhere
When you think
And nothing comes
Some say
Don't force it
But when
The poetry's gone
What's left
Is what you say
Because that's real
That's your core
Forget verses
Forget structure
Forget rhyming
Just write
How you feel
In broken words
Fragmented
Sentences
Because underneath
You're only
A human being
Just like me.

[C] Alice Daley

A funny girl.

She's a funny girl, all tears and drama,
She strops around, an overgrown teen,
Everything is the end of the world.
She's a lier and a manipulater,
But I wonder, and I pity her,
Because she doesn't understand,
From a point of perspective,
Where her own actions lead her,
And maybe she never will.

[C] Alice Daley

They don't know me.

They don't know me here
An opportunity to reinvent myself
But how to change an identity
Without losing my integrity?

I am who I am
I cannot be anyone else
And why should I?

But they don't know me here
I'm free from my past here
There are no explanations
No boundaries.

But I want to be myself
Nobody else will do
So maybe they'll accept me.

[C] Alice Daley

Horseback.

On a horse I feel correct within
Things make sense again
I understand the world
From the veiw point of a saddle
I have an advantage over them
On the ground, though they are stronger
I am on a horse,
I am safe up here
Out of their reach
Beyond their grasp.

[C] Alice Daley

Motion is emotion.

Walking, walking,
A good pace for talking

Trotting, trotting,
Clippity clopping

Canter, canter
Forget their 'banter'

Motion is emotion
My emotions

[C] Alice Daley

Horse.

Horse kind and horse gentle
Horse wild and horse free
Horse obedient and horse helpful
Horse difficult and horse easy

[C] Alice Daley

6am.

6am is a funny time
Too early to wake
Too late to sleep
In limbo.

Floating from night
Into the daylight
I am a wanderer
I wonder as I wander
Who is awake at 6am?

The commuters as they wake
The insomniacs still awake
Mothers of small children
Sleepy eyed teenagers maybe...

Who is awake at 6am?
The birds as they sing
The bees do their thing
I was never told about
The birds and the bees.

[C] Alice Daley

Rubber band.

My rubber band
Is a sign of recovery
My rubber band
Is a sign of strength
It's a portent of scars
Fading
Fading
Fading

[C] Alice Daley

Compulsion. An acrostic.

Can't help it, must do it
Oh shut up, need to do it
My head won't let me leave it
Put away those thoughts of harm
Understand it's not my choice
Listening to this horrid voice
So don't laugh or ridicule when
I rearrange or change things around
Or alter things into order, I don't do it on purpose
No but I must do it, can't help it

[C] Alice Daley

A funny thing.

Being in love is a funny thing,
It seems to make one's world brighter,
Life seems lighter, brighter still
When you're in love.

Being in love is a funny thing,
To feel safe and secure with someone
To trust them completely, it's easy
When you're in love.

Being in love is a funny thing,
Knowing your lover has your back,
Someone to fight for and who'll fight for you,
When you're in love.

Being in love is a funny thing,
Thinking, planning futures,
Houses, weddings; all to come
When you're in love.

[C] Alice Daley

Fears.

I faced my fears today,
I felt like a brave knight.
So brave to face,
That which scared me
So deeply, what hurt,
Scars on my record.
But today I faced them,
I did it, I feel so proud.
Because although my fears
Are for a reason,
I can overcome them,
For I am stronger
Than my fears
And so are you.

[C] Alice Daley

I grew my nails.

I grew my nails;
My anxiety ' improving.
I grew my nails,
A small achievement,
To some maybe,
But not to me.
No, not to me.
Long nails are so pretty,
Different colours shining,
But it's more than that-
I'm calmer, cooler,
So much less tense,
So I'm really happy,
That I grew my nails

[C] Alice Daley

Run the Race.

Let's run, let's fly,
let's win the race, let's try,
Training daily, sweat dripping,
Feet pounding, hair whipping,
As we run like the wind.
Over hills, round the bends,
Raising money for those in need,
Helping out those who do good deeds.
Puffing, panting- worth the effort,
For those in crisis, those feeling left out,
Putting others first,
Despite our thirst,
Despite the cramps and aches,
Because our heart breaks,
When people cry out in distress,
We wouldn't do anything less.
Let's run, let's fly,
Let's win the race, let's try.

[C] Alice Daley