Wednesday, 15 October 2014

Shining Knights and Toy Soldiers

All little girls dream of the day
the day they'll be swept off their feet,
By brave knights on white horses
in bright and shining armour.

Every grown woman wants rescuing
from a tower she built herself,
bricks and mortar - regrets and lies
broken promises, shattered dreams.

Wounded by boys who turned out to be
toy soldiers, marching in time,
serenaded by their fantasies of heroes,
only to find they were nothing more
than hollow tin.

She looks from the uppermost window,
presses her face against the glass-
She is longing for her knight
to scale the walls of hate she's built.

He tries to climb to her aid,
she reaches out her hand,
but her knight is merely a boy
playing dress up games.

© Alice Daley 2014

Friday, 18 July 2014

Fog

I write through fog, thick as smoke
My brain strains to gain meaning
I stammer and stutter
Can't get it out
I can't let it out

I write through a haze, clear as smog
Is it the illness or the medication?
Who knows?
Either way I'm stuffed
Anyway, I'm stuffed

Error, error, cannot compute
Warning lights flash in my mind
I'm getting left behind
Please don't leave me
Don't leave me here

Struggling through the clouds
I emerge into clarity
for a few brief minutes
Before I descend again
I descend beneath the fog

Friday, 11 July 2014

Blue Sky

"The clouds were pulled across the sky like wisps of candy floss, the afternoon sun beamed down on my pale skin, as I lay in the warm tub swing, which was rocking gently. The heat from the navy coloured plastic which had been basking in the summer sun, radiated through my skin into my aching spine and pelvis, its gentle fingers finding their way into all the nooks of my joints. As the comforting heat soothed my muscles, and the sun illuminated the world around me, I was content. Despite the burning pain in my eyes from the light, and the throbbing of my head, the churning of my stomach and the aching in my bones, I felt happy. I was outside in the sunshine, on what was essentially a giant hot water bottle, and life felt good."


Alley-Cat
xxxx



©Alice Daley 2014

Thursday, 10 July 2014

Uplifting Things!

Just some uplifting quotes to brighten your day!








Big loves!
Alley

xxxx

© Alice Daley 2014

Tuesday, 8 July 2014

Consequences Part II

This is the second part of the story 'Consequences,' The first part which can be read here.

The darkness seemed to be closing in around me, the velvety night sky smothering my shouts for help like a blanket. But eventually, after what could have been several hours, two lights pierced the blackness. They seemed a long way off, in the distance beyond the brow of the hill. I fixed my eyes back on the girl and the splintering branch. The wind howled through the bare branches of the trees, making the branch crack and sway alarmingly. ‘Don’t fall, don’t fall, don’t fall.’ I repeated under my quivering breath. I prayed to a God I did not believe in, pleading for him to keep the poor girl safe. The lights beamed over the brow of the hill, they must’ve only be half a mile off, and tears of joy prickled in my eyes. I glanced down at my own legs, numb and useless. To my disbelief, a pool of blood was gathering in the crushed foot-well. I gasped, wondering how much blood I’d lost, when suddenly, ‘CRACK!’ The car shook and the sound of glass smashing filled the night air. Terrified, I looked up through the shattered windscreen, which hadn’t been shattered before. I couldn’t see the girl over the huge branch, which had landed on the bonnet of the taxi. At last, the lights approached and drew to a halt on the road that ran alongside the field I’m run into. I heard voices shouting to me, and with all the strength I could muster, I shouted back with a final breath before it all faded to black.
*
Shuffling around the kitchen, Rob poured the coffee and grabbed the morning paper. Aloud he commented- ‘doom, death and destruction- that’s all I ever see in these bloody newspapers.’
‘Doesn’t stop you reading them though, does it?’ Tina commented.
‘Well no, I need to keep up with my sport.’
‘Of course dear,’ she pacified him with cold, idle chatter whilst sipping at her ‘super-berry-detox smoothie, which Rob thought resembled some sort of fruit massacre. They went about their individual routines, barely touching until the clock hit 7:00am, when Rob kissed his lover on the cheek and hugged her from the side. ‘See you later sweetie, and drive carefully,’ her sing-song voice ushered him out of the door.
The dashboard clock of Rob’s taxi flicked to 7:29am just as he pulled up outside the large town house. The huddled figure at the front door wore a long fur coat and was struggling to lift an old leather trunk. Rob rushed up the garden path to help Mrs McDevon with her luggage, and was greeted with a sincere smile. ‘It’s good to see you Robert. How are you?’
‘Oh I’m alright ma’am; pottering along, yourself?’
‘Well I’m quite looking forward to this little break, I do enjoy a good change of scenery every once in a while.’
‘Very good ma’am,’ Rob replied as he opened the back door of the taxi and helped his passenger up into her seat. Once he’d climbed into the driver’s seat, he automatically tuned the radio to Classic FM, and they drove off in amicable silence.
*
‘Rob, Rob, can you hear me?’ 
‘Robert, can you open your eyes for me please?’
‘Open your eyes please Rob.’
I heard them but I felt so far away, like I was underwater. I strained to surface, using all my will-power to try and open my heavy eyes. But I couldn’t, it felt as though my eyelids had turned to lead. My first thought was for the girl, was she alive? That was enough to push me to the surface and as I opened my eyes I was welcomed by bright white lights and a sea of concerned faces. I tried to lift my head but it appeared to be strapped down between two orange-coloured blocks. ‘Rob, lie still for me there please.’ A red-haired nurse said. 
‘The girl,’ I croaked out, 
‘She’s unconscious but stable, she’ll pull through.’ The nurse assured me, ‘now let’s focus on you Rob.’ I glanced down at my body, and although it was all there, I could only feel my torso and my arms. Filling with panic, my chest started heaving as I fretted. ‘What is it Robert? What’s wrong?’ A dark-skinned doctor with a stethoscope around his neck peered down at me. ‘My legs,’ I panted, ‘I can’t feel my legs.’ 
‘We need to send you for a scan before we can confirm anything Robert, but we suspect you have a severe spinal injury.’ The doctor’s face was serious. 
‘Tina! Does Tina know?’ I asked, concerned. 
‘We’ve contacted her, yes,’ soothed the nurse, ‘and she’s on her way.’
‘How bad are we talking?’ I questioned, though I half-suspected the answer. 
‘We can’t be sure of anything at this stage, Robert. It’s best not to speculate.’ The doctor’s answer was vague and diplomatic. But my main concern was for the girl; was she awake yet? What if she never wakes up? Will she make a full recovery?
*
Lilly wanted to get the bus to her new school- after all the nearest bus stop was only a ten minute walk away, but her mother insisted on driving her. As she stirred her cornflakes around the bowl, her mobile buzzed. The screen lit up with one name; ‘Ryan,’ and Lilly’s heart skipped a beat. She’d been dating Ryan Williams, the school bad-boy, at her last school and despite her doubts, he’d promised to stay in touch with her once she’d moved. She opened the message which read ‘Hi Lilz hope ur skool is beta dan kingz grov luv Ry x x x.’ Okay, so he wasn’t the best at spelling or grammar, but he was hot- all cheekbones and biceps. Quickly she tapped into her phone ‘Thanks babes, I’m a bit nervous but it’ll be okay. I love you, Lilly x x x.’

© Alice Daley 2014

An Extract from 'The Ventriloquist'

To say Warrick was a quiet boy would be something of an understatement- he did not speak. Never had a word passed his sixteen year old lips, and as he sat in the school cafeteria with his head bent over his textbook, silly twittering schoolgirls laughed at him. He heard snippets of their conversation; ‘I’ll give you ten pounds if you kiss the freak!’ One jeered. ‘Eww no, he’s probably got some sort of disease!’ Another replied, her high pitched squeal ringing out across the crowded hall, piercing through the chattering buzz, and nestling itself right next to Warrick’s eardrum. He shook his head microscopically, exhaled in a sort of weary way, and tried to focus on the quadratic equations set out before him, chewing on his pencil which hung loosely from the corner of his mouth. Suddenly, he felt a sting across the back of his head, and he lurched forward as he heard his books clatter to the floor, quickly followed by Aaron’s familiar smirk. ‘What’re you doing, freak?’ He taunted, standing behind the mute boy, a heavy hand upon his shoulder. Warrick remained silent. ‘What’s a matter? Cat got your tongue?!’ He jabbed his fingers into the side of Warrick’s neck, and his disciples laughed along with the joke, yet the boy, tall and wiry in frame with thick golden hair, did not utter a syllable. Not even an exclamation of pain was heard, as Aaron slammed his head into the desk, and left the cafeteria, his cronies in fits of snarling laughter. Warrick set about retrieving his books, and proceeded to settle down again to work, and though salty tears stung the corners of his eyes, they were not tears of sorrow, but tears of rage.

Later, his therapist scratched his head thoughtfully, his trusty pencil tracing over the outline of Warrick’s name as he sighed deeply. ‘Well lad,’ he muttered, shaking his head,  ‘I don’t know what this mother of yours thinks I can do for ye if ye don’t tell me what’s wrong.’ His thick northern accent sounded as though he was trying very hard to be friendly, his bushy grey beard giving him an almost Father-Christmas-like appearance. He looked old enough to be Warrick’s grandfather, and the cracked leather sofa he was sat on smelled terrible. Warrick’s lanky frame was sat awkwardly, his pointed elbows resting on his knees, his long, elegant fingers cupping his chin, staring intently at the psychologist through dark green eyes, like the colour of an emerald before it is honed, and remained silent. His huge emerald eyes were set into his narrow face in an attractively disproportional manner. Not at all balanced by his defined cheekbones, thin lips and pointed chin, they stood out from the rest of him, two glowing green beacons in the pale sea of his skin. They say the eyes are a window into the soul, but Warrick’s eyes were more than that, they seemed to consume you if you looked at them for too long, so still and quiet and calm and huge were they. The therapist changed tack, smiling brightly at the boy and asking ‘So, ye like school?’ and then, after a pause ‘What do ye like doing with yer time, got any ‘obbies?’ No response; nothing.  ‘Your mother tells me you’re getting bullied at school; do you want to talk about that? Perhaps you’d like to write it down, or draw a picture maybe, Warrick?’ Still staring, the silent boy shook his head, and stood up, as to indicate he wanted to leave. He shook the doctor’s hand and rolled his eyes when he heard ‘Nice to meet ye then son, see ye soon.’ When he walked back into the cool, clinical waiting room, his mother’s gaze met his and eagerly she inquired ‘So, how was it? Did you like him? He’s a lovely gentleman isn't he? Really lovely, yes, I think he’ll do nicely, you never know, you might even get to like him one day! We’ll come and see him at the same time next week, yes?’ Warrick could never understand why his mother had to fill every silence with idle chatter. To him it just seemed like a waste of effort, all that nonsensical small talk that she had for hours with her girlfriends over the phone, it wore him out just listening to it.

© Alice Daley 2014

Youth, stolen.

I long to be young again,
to laugh and play my days away,
to sing and dance in the garden,
to swing and run in the park,
to snuggle and read in my bedroom,
to be happy and merry and gay.

I long to be little again,
for someone to take control,
to kiss the grazed knees better,
to wipe the mud away,
to tell me it will be okay,
to shield me from it all.

I long to be small once more,
so I could let the world pass by,
carefree and cheerfully ignorant,
untroubled and blissfully naive,
dreaming and joyfully unaware,
of the realities of life.

© Alice Daley 2014